Life is like one big dream
with symbols to help you understand what it means
a bit fuzzy and always funny
like a bubble blanket under water
cuddling up like an innocent daughter
my boat is my body
my vessel for this journey
my mind is the captain
the water and the fish swimming
life is like one big dream
floating and swimming in the stream
going with the flow or finding
another way – like salmon who
forces her against the stream to spawn in May.
It’s all starting to become clear…
I have found what I’ve been looking for
I’ve never really had a nuclear family
at least not for too long
it has shifted and changed along th eway
with moments of relative solidity
I am grateful for these constant shifts
its taken a lot to get to this point
of acceptance
of letting go of past hurts and pains
i have forgiven
i still forgive
myself and those around me
everyone does their best
this is true.
that best changes from moment to moment.
this is true.
my family has always been extended
this has helped to create a community in my mind
a global community that extends well beyond parent and child
so much to learn from one another
so much to absorb and exchange
an extended flexible family
an extended flexible attitude
an extended flexible way of living in the world
all of which I am thankful.
Dreams of soup filled test tubes
slip on this new view
take a sip – see if its you
sample, experiment, try it on for size
there’s absolutely no obligation to buy
even if you do – rest assured sweet infinite soul
as in this great smorgasbord
everything has a shelf life
everything can be exchanged for less or more
Today in the sunlight you stand in a shared reality
the “collective conscious” so they say
I stand as a tall white woman
yet in my sleeping dreamtime I can be anything
last night a minature latino
anything is possible…
larger than life indeed –
new found confidence and self-esteem
waking dream…
sleeping dream…
slipping on a new view.
i see in your eyes how much you love me
i feel how your arms wrap around and embrace me so…
effortlessly, so openly, so naturally
i feel the comfort around you unlike any other
and of all the high vibrational beautiful people
i’ve been around
you are still the one –
the most beautiful and the highest
i’ve yet to encounter
i wish you had more time for me
i know your door is always open
i wish you had more space for me
i know you’ll always make room
i love you, i know this is true
i do
“its the little things” he says
i’ve missed you, me too
In a few short hours
I’ll be on the road again
waving a fond farewell to the desert
while heading back to the state
where it all began.
this time in a different way
I’ve learned about life and love
following my intuition
and making the most of every day.
there is so much out there
in this expansive world of ours
a variety of different lives to live
an abundance of options
a plethora of fragrant flowers
so many things to waste away the hours.
Tomorrow I’m heading on the road again
who knows what the future holds
but I am sure as time progresses
and I keep trekking down my path
that life will continue to open up
love will be found all around
and once again I will overfill my cup.
If there is one thing that is for sure
at least I will know
whenever the time comes
whenever I go
that I’ve tried out some options
some different realities
of life here and there
there won’t be regret
nor any confusion
as I’ll have experienced my life
adding to my personal season.
looking out to the grey desert clouds today
after climbing through a rhododendron thicket yesterday
i am reminded that everything is what i make it
every bit of this life is here because its what i choose.
if i stay long enough i’ll know how my soul feels
how it longs or linger or what it finds real
i guess i’ll keep moving
along till i find
the place where i feel the best
where the sun shines bright.
the thing is that the light shines here
and it also shines there
some places a little more
some places a tad bit clear.
the smell of the dry pinion pine
traded for the honeysuckle of north caroline
of course there’s a happy medium in which i will find
i wonder if its the place i started
the one that transcends time
that stays with me wherever i go
that holds steadfast flying high like the crow?
rhyming my way through the roots of my mind
the leaves of my being
and the branches of time
it sure helps me at least i believe
that at least I will know
what life is like because i’ve tried
because i’ve thought about it
because i’ve made my life mine…
the spiral continues
the pendulum swings
i’m back here in the desert
where i learned to use my wings
happy to be back
in this space once again
the feeling is what spurred
my traveling trend
traveling of heart
traveling of mind
trying my best to understand time.
i’m back here now
feeling it all again
even my hair looks the same
as it did back when
i’m different now
yet it still takes all that it can
it doesn’t leave what it doesn’t want
it just takes and takes and takes
its relentless
survival mode comes into play
the important things are the focus
in the dry long days
like health, true health.
like prosperity that is surely relative
but here anything more than what is here
seems to fit that bill
as simple as water, oh yes, water.
water, life, prosperity
sucking, taking i can feel it
this time around its more intense than before
a feeling that makes me want to run
run right out the door
back to the mountains
where life abounds
back to where life is
where easy people can be found.
the spiral, three times thus far
lucky i am to experience this too
lucky i am to know i can make it through…
Lots of input
an overload
needing an overhaul
time to decompress
what better place
than where the ol’ coyote howls
the cactus bloom
and the bats fly at night.
the desert
where everything is taken
so appropriate
such a place to release
to review and gain insight
upon myself
upon my journey
upon this life
baring my soul
once again
there is no place to hide.
The light, oh the light
dancing through the canopy
from daybreak through twilight
amazing it is
everywhere you look
something new to see
a new perspective on the same thing.
nature’s ever changing beauty
is apparent in each moment
an evolving landscape
with time to enjoy it.
brightly colored petals
veins in the leaves
highlighted climbers
and moss on the trees
taking your attention
where she pleases-
a delight for all the right reasons
growing, living, dying
in each season.