Losing my Mind

Losing my mind

losing a sense of what was

in a purgatory of sorts

living in between the earth and sky

my mind goes into this

my heart seeks emotional songs

my eyes see so much beauty

it becomes hard to see

synchronicities happen regularly

a part of life now

what about the magic?

I can’t help but feel it’d be nicer

if I were in a two…

I enjoy moments with others

of course I do…

but I still lay my head to sleep


I dream of being in a Two…

just me and you…

creating our world

manifesting our reality…

Private Space

Such a bizarre occurance

inviting others into my space

my personal space

amongst my manifestations

stepping into my unique nest

reminders to myself – everywhere I look

now they do too…

color, lots of color

the myth genre story steps

post-its to breathe and have awareness


in my smell

in my atmosphere

using my daily personal bathroom…

Allowing others into my private dream

my private inner sanctum of the physical world…

letting others in…

Sharing the private personal me

in my lair

lucky I am to even have such

I am grateful. grateful for sure.

Dinner and chatting

dinner and chatting

dinner and chatting

Sharing of Energy

nourshing our bodies and our hearts

fortunate to have the space

and openness to share…

to have the opportunity to entertain

entertain or whatever that means…

Perhaps soon singing and music…

or sharing of writing may accompany a meal…

in an easy flowing non-obligatory way…

Oh how the flow changes…

how I am grateful to be sharing my space

my private personal space

a blessing it is indeed…

perhaps i can hold this space

of openness

after they are in my guard is down…

tread lightly

but be sure to share…


Build Metta

the more love and kindness the better!

Don’t stop believing

continue to practice

challenge old paradigms



experience the spectrum!



spread my wings


Communal support

be a part of what is

be there

be here



Cultivating talents

confronting fears

transcending “reality”

new prespective

altered lenses

changing, changing, changing.

clearning the mind

feeling all sensation

wash, wash, wash

start again


choose what you’d like…

look for synchronicity

experience it



Let Go

Mother Nature’s Flower

A sweet love



daisies and roses

thorns yes.

lovely fragrance yes.

beauty yes.

blooming to be showcased

to be experienced

then to wither

and bit by bit have it’s beauty removed

by nature

by the elements

the inconsiderate

impersonal elements of mother nature

she knows best apparently

and she’ll rob one of its beauty, youth


she’ll take it all.

so enjoy whatever it is…




“Placated People Who Play By the Rules”

thoughts of a lover swirl in my head

a migration of energy

uniting in a time and place

where my soul was nourished and fed

just for a moment

a savory introduction

attachments, attachments whatever do they mean?

the stated mores of this reality…

a brilliant connection that can never be seen

dancing around in my head like a dream…

the smells of the flowers

the gentle loving touch of a hand

being led through the thicket

by a soul in the form of a beautiful man

a sharing that was pure

not one of “placated people who play by the rules”

i had to get away

so perhaps i am one of those fools

the memory stays with me

as it always will with you…

Back in Time

back in a time
where values are antiquated
old fashioned ways
outward appearances
singing at the pews
wasn’t ever really from here
i just spent time
my time, i needed to learn
i can survive
i must know one extreme
to experience the other
i have to know senseless order
to have perfect chaos
intentional freedom
i must know the mold
to break from it
it isn’t my mold
that is utterly clear
as i find myself back here


by releasing ourselves of who we were in the past and also releasing family members of who they were in the past, we are all allowed to move on in a peaceful manner… the more i hold them to who i think they used to be they do the same… i know i am different and i realize its a breath of fresh air to have a person, even moreso, a family member, come in with fresh eyes… always changing, constantly changing… them, us, we… all… allowing the moment to be… and it is a joyous one when i come with fresh eyes and a heart of love…

In hope for more

so here i am
where i thought i would be
but not how i want it to be
not feeling quite like my best me
sure i can make it work
sure i can morph and transform
not really my thing these days
not at all
so change is in the air again
oh yes again indeed
there is always a reason for the wind
surely enough the breeze is picking up speed
its not due to lack of opportunity for money
for making a life in the wine country
but its just not me
perhaps it was before
but i’ll never know
lifetimes away from now

i am blessed with incredible gifts
of seeing things as they are
with the ability to follow my bliss
to redefine and forecast
in ways beyond my comprehension
manifestations of dreams
all of them from my past
the same one that led me here
but i am no longer that
so now i guess its time to dream again
to make smaller steps
to build the foundation
to continue my climb
my growth
all or none or so it seems
take it or leave it
these incredible dreams
but for now…
for now…
for now…
just looking for simple happiness
simple truths
yet yearning for a bit of a steady home
which i can make happens when i choose
but the wind keeps on blowing
my mind keeps expanding
and my heart… oh my heart… it keeps me moving

i am a feeler with incredible intuition
aware in so many ways
yet a novice to it all
not knowing how to really harness it
so move i must
thats all i seem to know right now
move until i feel it
hopefully someday that feeling will sustain

to leave one reality for another in hopes of something better…


I inspire others

others inspire me

trust my instincts

go with that flow

realize it all changes

there’s nothing to hold on to

its all just energy

momentarily held in form

its hard to not be fooled by my eyes

to not trust what I see

but its all just a projection

imagined by me –

the power of the human mind

is beyond comprehension

the endless possibilities

the unlimited potential

the awaiting opportunities