The Nostalgic Point of No Return

Recently I’ve been having a realisation that I am in a relationship with my family and we as a whole have relationships with other people, family units, and places.

There comes a point in a relationship, when after you have left it, there is a time when you can return and are able to make amends, things can patch back together. However, after that time, say 2 years, if you go back, it’s mostly due to nostalgia of what was, of who the other person was, of who you were, and none of it is based in what is really happening now in your reality. When returning to a place that has already passed its point of nostalgic no return, at first you’ll be fooled by your self of all the great things, you’ll see it all through rose coloured glasses and things will feel almost better than ever before. However, in a week, the reality starts to creep in. You’ll start noticing all the things that made you decide to leave in the first place. You’ll notice that the show of good behaviour fades away and the truth of the situation, of the people, surface showing a reality that you don’t really want to be a part of anymore.

Two years, is a major amount of time when your growth game is strong. In two years, you can grow apart something fierce and still have the nostalgia to make you think that’s what you want, but in moments of clarity you realise that’s exactly what it is. The old place is the old place that entertained the old you. It’s where you grew in that stage of life. It’s a fine place to visit, but you don’t live in nostalgia as it stunts your growth.

In two years, from leaving the lovely regional area where I met my husband, we have lived in suburbs outside of Australia’s most populous city, we have had a child together, our whole lives have shifted and we are well and truly different people than we were when we first moved here. How can we ever really go back to what was, because we are not that anymore, that place is not the same either, we have all changed. AND this is all okay.

The better option is to take what you’ve learned and move into the new version of you, of your family, and align it with a location that fits your aspirations best, based on who you are now and who you are becoming. A place that supports your growth, your overall well being and your direction in life. Along with that, all of the right players will come in, at the right time, to help along this path, because it is the right path to take. It will be easy, so easy that we’ll look back at how hard the other path has been to get back to and realise that it was because that other path was never the path we were really meant to travel down together, as a family. It’s heartbreaking and liberating at the same time.

Life is meant to be easy. Life is meant to be joyous and fun. Life is meant to have more laughter than tears. Life is meant to be shared. Life flows along when you are in the path that you are supposed to be in. When aligned with the truth, all things fall into place, it’s that simple, it’s what happens. I have experienced this time and time again in my own personal life. The only time it gets hard is when I am out of sync.

By releasing attachment to the old relationship, the old path, the former town where growth occurred, it gives space for the new opportunities to arise, and they will.

It’s a blessing that things change. I also know it’s a blessing to feel that now I get to change with my family, as a unit. We together get to manifest our new lives together. We together get to build our lives how we want them, letting go of any past expectations, letting go of anyone else’s version of life. We get to forge ahead together and have the blessed life we deserve. <3

Applying and Being Accepted

Recently I applied for a job and quite honestly it was like a breath of fresh air. It didn’t feel daunting or like I needed to have a million different and diverse skills that I didn’t have in order to get it. Granted I am way overqualified for it, it still felt so good. I didn’t have any pressure on myself about it and just did it all with such ease. I applied and it was easy. My cover letter was so straightforward about who I am and what I can offer. My additional correspondence for their extra questions was heart felt and totally honest. The phone call with the two brothers who started the music school, flowed easily and felt good.

 

How nice it is to feel like I am the top candidate and it’s pretty much up to me if I am able to work full time and then I’ll get the job. The thing is that I don’t want to work full time away from home, away from my baby. He’s almost 16 months old and I don’t want to sacrifice what may be a short term boost and have a negative impact long term. What I really want is something truly part time where I work on it no more than 3 days a week and still get paid for a regular work week. I must have that kind of flexibility in my life to make sure that I am taking care of my emotional responsibilities and I hold that in higher esteem now than ever before.

 

Ideally a job in the creative arts where I am in a team and I help make a difference where we all succeed and move up, and I’m paid handsomely, that would get me going for sure. Alternatively a job where I have a dedicated team of people who I work so well with, whom I am able to really make great strides moving forward in my own business and bring in way more cash flow than if I just worked for someone else, I would take that too. Either way, it has to be part time at this stage of my life, while my husband works full time, five days a week, and I cannot compromise on this.

With all that said, it really does feel nice to have such an instant rapport and to be accepted so readily. All businesses should have processes like this in place. By creating such an honest and very branded way of communicating, it sets the tone and the culture up so nicely.

Looking to the Bright Side

I have to look on the bright side

to think of the good things in my life

for I am healthy and being my best

I know I cannot control the rest

I can just try every day to progress

to feel the love and feel that I am blessed.

 

I have seen disparity and poverty in other lands

I have seen dishonesty and hatred firsthand

I chose to leave so I could continue to expand

my own horizons even though they are unplanned.

 

I just know that the storms are almost over

as I start a brand new chapter

of my life as I gain closure

relinquishing any pent up anger

embracing my new future.

 

Sunny days and blue skies are ahead

I am trading them for the rain and thunder instead

So I can feel the love surround my heart and my head

because I have to enjoy this life before I am dead.